Thursday, July 15, 2010

The funny things about this...

This last week was a challenge, emotionally and physically. Despite the changes, I needed to get out of the house. A date was in order and so we went, even though there were now apparent changes to my hair. (Thanks Anne)
It was my first time out in public without a hat or scarf or anything. I was nervous. Maybe it was because Mike needed a hair cut so bad and I now had shorter hair than he did.

It was an experience watching other people watch me. I am learning what it feels like to not care what they think, just how to get comfortable with myself. I was confident that this was the right choice. I also knew I would be having the entire thing shaved at the rate those little hairs were shedding on my pillow...eewee!

I went to a family reunion with my scarf...because this was what was underneath...patches and patches. Not something I could deal with any longer....and this smile is fake by the way.

We had fun, and it was nice to get out. The very next day this is what happened.....

You can see I was a little nervous. It is my head for heavens sake...and a razor went on top!
I knew I had to face it eventually.
I will have to admit though, when it was all over, every time I look in the mirror, I scare myself a bit. My head is so white...and I look like an alien. Hmmm...whateva! It is what it is. I was so scared I would scare my little girls when they woke up the next morning. Edyn just started patting my head and saying. "Fuzzy fuzzy, all gone, Mommy has no hair or fuzzy fuzzy!"
Don't you love how kids are honest and don't judge but just love you back unconditionally.
Morghan told me I had a pretty face, then rubbed my eyebrows. I asked her politely to not touch them. I am thinking I am lucky to have them and my eyelashes as well, better not mess with them right? Morghan is such a sweet girl about it...though today she asked me if on the first day of school, I would wear my wig....what do you suppose that means?


  1. I love your shaved head! Last night I was studying in our front room and looked out the window and saw Mike & you riding around...with no wig or hat! I was SO proud of you! You looked beautiful! I nearly ran outside to tell you, but then I remembered that I was missing an important piece of "underclothing" that I take off first thing when I get home, these days, because it's just too small! So, I'll just have to tell you now...You go girl! You look beautiful! You're an inspiration to me!

  2. Hi, you don't know me, but I'm following your story because I find you to be so funny, honest, authentic, and inspirational. I found out about you from my friend on Facebook Aubrie Litster. I wish you the best and am sending good vibes your way.


  3. Oh Shayla, I always knew you were beautiful. You are even more beautiful to me today than you ever were! Come what and love it! I love that phrase. You are an inspiration to me.

  4. You look great! What a great example of inner beauty you are to your girls & mine. Be your authentic self, it's beautiful!

  5. you do look amazing! and i'm sorry to hear you were so sick. i hope things are going better now. it was great to see you at the reunion. once we're all moved and i get my camera pics downloaded i'll send you the ones i got. you seriously look so beautiful!